I did it...I submitted a brief to Spice Briefs.....

I did it.  Submitted a piece to Spice.  I finished it, spell checked it, and was ready to send the thing, but something stopped me. 

Me.

I had the email all ready.  I double checked everything twice and then i called a friend all the way 'cross country.  Jewelz.  She's like another sister to me.  Anyhow.....I had sent out two emails to friends as well.  Nancy knows what i'm talking about, and so does Jules.  Check it out - two Julies!

I called her.  I said, "Jewelz.  I'm done.  I'm ready to send it out for approval or rejection."  Jewelz said. "Yeah!"  Then i said:

"Umm...i can't." 

Of course she was having none of that.  She ranted and raved, b*tched and moaned.  Finally she told me what to do.

"Put your cursor on the send button.  Do not send. I repeat, DO NOT SEND.  Keep your finger on the mouse though.  We'll talk and when you're ready, you'll do it."

So we chatted about other things.  About why i felt like i couldn't send the brief.  We both figured out it wasn't because of the possible rejection.  It was because of the possible approval.  What if i couldn't write the same way again?  What if i had nothing left inside of me?  Those were the feelings i couldn't get over.  Then something happened. 

Jewelz yelled really loudly into the phone, scaring the heck out of me.  My finger twitched and i sent the damn email.

So, amidst laughing and teasing, I sent in my piece to Spice Briefs.  I've got the "received email" back.   You know -the three to six months wait period.  I'll start a new one for them.  I'm an old hand at it already....Yeah!!!  Right?

No.

I was looking at the brief the other night to double check something because i'm working on a 2nd story for them.  I found a mistake in the first paragraph and then another one further down.  Dagnabbit! I thought spell check would have gotten them!!!! 

Now i'm banging my head on the desk and wondering if it's all worth it.  Is it?  I think so.  Most of the people i talked to said the same thing.

"Are you writing just for your friends or do you want a whole bunch of new friends?  Do you want to write?  Do you need to write?"

Yes.  The answer to all is yes.  Yes i want a bunch of new friends.  I like people.  Yes i want to write and yeah, i need to write.  One day i want to stand in a bookstore, near my book and say to everyone that passes by:

"That's me!!!"

Feels better now that i've written out my worries...do you all have the same worries? When you submit something, do you worry that they'll accept or do you worry that they'll reject?  And if they accept, do you worry about getting the next one out?

Later gators..........

Nini :)

Participating author in Summer 2008 Pass the Plot

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