Why is it so hard for me to make myself write?
The first time I realized I loved writing, I think I sat for hours and churned out page after page. When I was finished, I felt wonderful! I was so relaxed and...happy! So why wouldn't I work that into my day, everyday? There are so many ideas that I'd like to finish, but I can't seem to find the time or discipline to make myself do it.
Whenever I have a few hours, I look at everything else that has to be done, the laundry, the kitchen, the dishes, dust, and yes, reading the forums on eharlequin and put off doing what I know is good for me and makes me happy.
Sometimes I have to MAKE myself sit in the chair and open the file of my WIP. Once I get started, it feels as if something inside of me unplugs and all the stress and life issues flow away.
Any pyschologist out there want to have a go at what that means?
sitting in the chair
I find it hard to start because I want the words to be perfect - perfect description, perfect characters. I read somewhere that Nora Roberts said her first draft is vomit on the page, she has to get it out. I have to trick my mind and tell myself it's okay if I forget to describe the setting or the character - I can fix it later. Trust me - that ain't easy either! And yeah, sometimes I have to force myself. Starting is the hardest part, I think Stephen King said that. See, I spend too much time reading about writing when I should be writing. I had to make a list of my goals for this year and I notice when I see it - I can actually sit and write because that list is daring me not to. I'm not a psychologist, just a writer trying to finish a story.