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I know it's been a while since I've been around on any of the boards really. But I have been reading through and keeping you all in prayer. Beckie, Jordan's mom, and Dream.. I'm especially lifting you and your families up right now. No news yet for me as far as a job for the fall.

Adrienne and Becky I'm praying..

Thanks for the prayers. My interview is this morning (9am on the west coast).Nothing has changed, or even been discussed about the other prayer rq. Have a great day everyone!

Okay, so many of you know that I just finished my degree and I'm subbing while applying for teaching positions for the fall.

Well, my two kids and I have been staying with my parents while I got through school. I wanted to move out this summer - I think my mom is ready to have her house back too.

Looking at my finances as a teacher with a contract and my measly child support- after I pay student loans, car payment, insurance, childcare, gas and groceries, etc.. well

by the time I get through all that I have 1100/month left for rent, utilities, medical, dental, shoes, clothes, phone, savings, and anything else that might pop up  like birthdays, christmas, and heaven forbid something breaks! I don;t ever spend money on myself.. I cut my own hair! I've been using money from gifts (from my birthday, mother's day etc) to buy books or get them from the library.

I've been crying out in prayer to God all morning. There are no apartments I can rent - even with my kids, 10 years apart sharing a bedroom, where I can make rent, untilities phone, etc...on $1100 month. I need to be close to my family for my support system- and even if I could move to another part of town - my older son can't handle another move where he has to make all new friends and adjust at a new highshool for 10th grade. And the rent is pretty much the same everywhere here, unless I want to live where I'm afraid to be a single mom with two kids alone - places with known gang activity and problems.

I don't think my stepmom will let us stay, but i feel like I need another year - at least until my pay goes up a little and I no longer have to pay for full time child care like I do now. I could still do all the cooking and cleaning and could now give a much more significant financial contribution each month. Like rent equal to the aprtment I'd be renting. But I do not know if she will go for it. I love my parents, but I want out so bad - want my own place again so badly, but I just don't see how we can survive. And sadly, I don't think my step mom, who I know loves me and my kids, will go for us staying through this August. She has plans for the extra rooms already.  I might not know if I have a teaching job or not until August! I defintley cannot support my family on a subs pay! I am working htis summer, but even then I won;t have enough for a security deposit and 1st month. And I have no furniture. I have nothing - when we ran ( a few thousand miles) from my abusive ex - their dad - we had to leave everything. I'm all for used furniture, but I have bad allergies so they have to be smoke and pet dander free - LOL!

Then I get angry at my ex... if I had the over $10000 he owes me, that would soothe things over for the first year on our own - or I wouldn't have so much in student loans to pay back. I had to take them out to make up for the CS I wasn't getting from him.

I feel like I'm whining, but I am so overwhelmed. I had the day off unexpectedly. I just spent the morning sobbing and crying (some whining too I;m sure). I know God says don;t worry, but I have to start planning for moving now.

I knew it would be hard, and financially tight, but I didn't expect it to be nigh impossible.

Okay I vented. I'm still crying and praying.

Please pray that God just works it all out!

Keeping all of you in my prayers.

I have a prayer request.. I have a job interview Wednesday the 21st for a permanent contracted teaching position. I pray that God provides a job, the right job for my family and I.

Yikes - haven;t been on for a while but...

Happy Birthday!!!!

So sorry for your loss. We just went through something similar - Abby was 15 years old. We're still adjusting....my heart goes out to you as well.

Happy Mother's Day - still one minute to go here on the west coast LOL. Thank you Lord for faithful and strong moms!

PTL Beckie. We just had to put our dog down a few weeks ago...she was 15 and it was sooo hard.

Yay to the winners and congratulations for everyone that posted. This was a hard challenge (notice, I didn't even enter, LOL) and the stories eveyone came up with were fantastical (is that a  legitimate word? )

Ila- Happy for you!

Jill, I only tell the truth! :-)